Make Believe

You lured me in with your lies

Captured me with your confidence

Tricked me with your gestures

Made me fall over the fence

Your smart moth leading of misunderstandings

For i push you away because of the silly things

You’re like bubble and mushroom

You pop in and out of my life

Mind you i’m not that patient

To be waiting for you whenever you like

Like scrabble letters your mind’s messed up

I’m not really sure if you want this or not

Exclusive, that’s what we are

I get that, i know that

But something’s bugging me behind bar

You told me you love me

I told you it wasn’t true

For it’s easier to believe

In “i like you” than “i love you”

The things i know i’m afraid to tell

I might hurt your feelings with the words i can’t even spell

Dying to know, afraid to find out

That’s how i feel on the things they talk about

Is this true?

Is this real for you?

I’m so confused, what should i do?

I don’t even know what i feel for you

All i know is that i’m afraid, terrified

For i’m not ready to lose you

Is this just make believe

Are you playing a game

Please tell me

I don’t wanna put myself to shame

 

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Thoughts on a cold afternoon..

Here i am now on this abyss
I sit and watch behind this glass
In a corner of a coffee shop
Sipping tea that wouldn’t be warm enough

Listening to the echoes
Thinking of the hows and whys
And when will i be sane
Sick of raindrops skittering on a window pane

This is for you, woman! 

Woman, when will you learn?

The world isn’t constant.

People come and go.

Stop putting your heart out on someone who doesn’t even know what the word “consistency” means.

Stop risking it all for someone who’s wvwn afraid to fall off the chair.

Stop wasting your time on someone who can’t even make time for you.

Stop.

Just stop.

To my Uncle..

If i were to laugh it’d be at your jokes

If i were to eat something it’d be ginabot

If i were to choose a place it’d be your house and

If i were to choose my favorite person it’d be you
Life’s too unfair and fate’s too unpredictable

It’s depressing and way too frustrating

Time’s gonna make you wish it was longer

And memories will make you cry at night wishing they were real
If i could only go back to the last time we talked

I would’ve said the words i’ve never uttered before

I would’ve hugged you so tight that you’d burst

And i would’ve thanked you for everything you’ve done for me

The Ocean and The Stars

 

The ocean is quiet tonight
Stars are not shining bright
Everything is but a standstill of doubts and lies
Confusing at times like the question of tides
But it is still beautiful tonight
And everything is just alright
You’re far and far and ocean keeps us apart
It does not mean that i will not do my part
These tides are but flow that come and go
What matters is what to show
Let me be your message in a bottle
For you to call when everything is but a shackle
Give me your pain and sorrow
And i will give you the hope of tomorrow
I believe in you with my love, trust and loyalty
With no regret, suffering nor pity
To show only respect rather than utter contempt
Forgive me for my attempt
But you have me, everything and mine
And i don’t want you to keep in line
You’re as free as the sea
I will not beg and plea
Take me when you’re ready
And all would be a remedy
The ocean is quiet tonight
Stars are not shining bright
The quiet is beautiful
And the bright is truthful
Give me what is yours to give
And we will surely live
Let me be your message in a bottle every night
When you are at the shores in you every right

Memoirs of You

I will always remember the summer i fell in love 

All the weeks were full of life

And the flowers are  fully bloomed

I will always remember the warmness in your eyes 

The smile that lights up my world

The empty nights wondering if you’re deep asleep

Wondering what love really is

All those hours of sleepless nights fighting over silly things

But the best thing after that are the forehead kisses and hugs 

Like nothing ever happened

I will never understand what it is inside the both of us

That makes us fight so hard with our prides that it hurt so much

Love is a bittersweet pain

A constant reminder, a constant sadness

A curse we’re all blessed with

It’s beautiful and ugly

And love is a music played in a silent night

It’s the first thought in the morning

What it is that motivates us to keep going

It’s the same force that keeps us wishing we were somewhere in the past

What’s funny is it’s the little things you remember

How perfect your fingers fit between theirs

The silly jokes and the goofy laugh

The late night drives and talks under the stars

It’s funny that there are a few billion people in this world

And i’m stuck here with you

I love being wrapped in your arms like burrito

I love that there is no place else in the universe that i’d belong

Like i belong in there

And i find strength with the thought that you love me too

That our hearts are connecting

I like to thing that there’s a place where all our plans and promises

Are growing and alive

Your voice is the lullaby that helps me fall asleep

You will always be my summer

You will always be my love

Bittersweet

I’m bitter, you’re sweet
Heck you make my heart skip a beat
Med students call it premature ventricular contractions
Teens call it “kilig”
Some call it infatuation
I know nothing ’bout this shit

I’m in, you’re out
We keep on taking different routes
I’m right, you’re left
I should file you a case on theft
You stole my heart you weird little human
Don’t laugh i’m writing this the most creative way i can

I hate it when you’re being bubbly
You hate it when i’m too chatty
I hate it when you just stare
I feel like you don’t even care
This thing we have it’s different than the others
Sometimes we’re friends, Often times we’re lovers

Push and pull is what we do
Hot and cold either me or you
Naughty and nice depends on the mood
Whatever works as long as we’re good

Rain 

Here you are again

Pouring your heart out on me

Letting me feel the coldness

The sadness is everything i see

Your tears are falling everywhere

I wish i could talk to you
But all i can do is feel your sorrow

Just let me cry with you too

It’s beautiful, you are beautiful

With the tears you cry

For there is beauty in your sadness

You don’t even have to try

The Only World I Need 

There will come a day when the world is shattered and abandoned.

A dark day that everyone is gone and life seems lost.

A world filled with pain and loss and nothing can be done to remedy the pain and sorrow. 

The world will end someday but not for me because the only world i need is you. 

I can live a desonate world as long as i have you.

For without you, my world is lost forever into a lifeless abyss.

The day i lose you is the end of the world for me.

You give me light in any darkest day. 

Stay with me and i will always be happy no matter where we are.